i'm pretty frustrated.

so maybe it's a lot harder than i thought.
i really am trying. but i'm tired all the time.
i'm reading my bible more, and thinking about God
all the time.

but what i want most of all is an
actual physical relationship with someone.
someone to talk and laugh with,
spend time with,
someone i can trust and who actually listens to me.
i just want a companion. because i'm tired of being lonely.

sometimes i wonder

well, it has been a while. i guess habits can actually die quite easily.
um, basics:
i miss dallas friends.
i miss going to garland first.
things are getting smoother in austin.
i'm still making mistakes.
i'm getting closer and closer to buying a car.
and it seems like i want to be capable of loving someone.
geez, not that again.