this is for you.

i have a heart that's begging to be touched.

a mind waiting for a revelation of wisdom.

my hands are stretched high to touch the one that loves me.

the one who is stretching me and therefore, is stepping further

and further away, just like a dad steps away to watch his child walk 

to him. for what is it but another chance to learn and to love my father?

i'm wanting to grow and trust.

and the simplest realization came to me:

He's still here.

and He will bless me.

so for all the people that God has given me a word for, all the people that God has used me to encourage, know that through all of this, i too have been begging and crying and dying on the inside. i too am not perfect and i too get tempted. i remember the mistakes i've made and the people that have hurt me and the people that i've broken. 

but remember what i told you. God is faithful. and He will carry you through. i'm praying for you guys, and i genuinely love you. and you can come to me about anything and trust that i'll love you no matter what. and if you read this, next time we see each other, give me a hug. i'm sure that we'll both need it.

much love,

samantha.