all my life, i've tried so hard

it seems like every break i get something else comes along. i find it hard to focus these days. i can no longer see the stars from where i'm standing. i almost cried today and i felt so sad. i feel like i'm failing at everything i'm doing.

so where do i go from here? how to i move on to a different place?

i'm longing for something to change.

and i'm looking for God to give me peace and still my racing thoughts.

this is the rawest i've ever felt.

i couldn't be more honest.